How U Change

well sometimes its good to know that you can change. i mean its good to change and be something different. being the same is so sooooooooo the same. i mean it's just crazy that i want to change... some people these days are so stuck in their ways they don't want to change.... well i do and i am...

my heart dropped

my heart hit the floor
when i didn't answer my phones door
she suspected i was gone off the earth
but i was just gone first
before she was
i got injured and hurt
i got bent and chopped and screwed
and noone wants to listen to my view
who's story will she choose
i hate that i'm hurt and injured
and noone wants to help and understand me
a drunken monkey told her some things out of anger
now she's doing things out of anger
confused is making her irritated
scratching her head she has an idea to cheat
with an ex
with an text
i call and tell her "let me speak to the one i love"
she gives me the hardest time i've ever had
i reach out and let it go
but i catch it and and my feelings are held in and took accountable for it
i don't regret something that didn't happen
and if she wants to believe something untrue
then her heart is untrue
and as my heart dropped i learned how to leave it there,
if she really loves me she'll find it and give it back to me