i know what i want

i sit here thinking and i know what i want. i see this person and see what i need and want. its crazy how you think you want one thing but when you really realize it, you find out something different than what you thought. its amazing how you notice things about yourself, whether its early in your years or when you get older. i am noticing it now. like when im irritated i don't like people all on me or keep talking to me knowing i don't want to be bothered. or when im eating i don't like people staring straight at me. or when i wake up, i wake up early so that no one will see me looking a horrible mess. like beyonce "im a train wreck in the morning," and when you irritate me "im a bitch in the afternoon." i look at alot of things and begin to analyze them, i analyze myself. i look at what i like and dislike. and if in a relationship i am so picky that i don't want them to know my flaws right away that may become a downfall, only because like a "lady friend" of mine said, its good to know a persons flaws only because you can know so if they ever do try to change on you, they can't because you know what they are and aren't capable of. well i believe that's true, i feel that its me and they should except me for me, right along with my flaws. its me that they want so except all of me... that to me makes sense. i know me and since i except me i want you to, too. i know what i want. i want someone who will do that. i love women, that's my forte. i love the shape a woman has, i love the curves she makes when she walks, i love the way she talks when her lips curve. i love the way she moans when i eating her pussy good as hell. i love the way she makes the sounds when she wants me to eat her pussy. i love to feel her lips on both of mine. i love to kiss and hold her and feel her warmth. i love to talk to her because i know she will understand. i love to please. i love to cater to a womans needs, when her friends visiting, i love a womans demands. i love a woman period. i love when that same woman wants to do me the same way and thats what i want a woman to love me for me. ... point plain plain blank.