"in" a Relationship

yes i know... being in a relationship is hard. but someone has to do it. i love being in a relationship but its what makes the relationship, that makes it work. i know that people say that its unreal, that love can't be true or real, but it can be. you just have to do the work if you really want it, so that it can stay at a steady pace.
for example i was with this girl. i found out later that her ex was having a baby, "for us", yeah demetria said she loved me and she said she cared but made up every excuse to break up with me. and she finally got that reason when an unsuspected caller left a voice message on my phone. and somehow demetria without knowing my password got in and heard it and she used that against me. she and i got back cool but thats after her and her ex got back together. damn, so i'm playing this role like she really is gonna break up with her ... naht. naht at all. well now you know you can't always have this type of thing called love perfectly wrapped in a nice box with a bow on it. it comes scraggly and torn you have to build it up. you have to work on it so it can be that beautiful gift.
us women especially expect too much that sometimes its our fault we nick-pick at alot if its not how we want it but we have to learn to accept it, no matter how much effort it takes if you want it, you will go for it.