tell me why... i'm missing you

i stood up in the mirror and found heartbreak in front of my eyes,
the wing on the left gave out,
now im depending on one wing to soar the sky,
how devastating and im in a life learning process,
i should let go and let God handle the rest
but when you still hate the fact,
and the whole world is on your back,
you tend to get loose and strength you lack,
i look at your pictures and this mark on my body and see how good you make me feel,
but then i notice instead of making it beat, my hearts on a stand still,
hoping that one day you can please my heart,
till then we're still 30 minutes far,
i love you so much this hurt is making me hate you,
not that i want to,
but because of the things you do,
what the hell are you doing-the devils work
are trying to stab me or my heart first,
either way i'll end up in the dirt,
hoping that the pain will heal,
then i'll raise from the dead only to be a theif in the night to steal
and maybe when you see how it feels
the medicine won't be familiar so you'll just be afraid
and find a way
to say
im sorry
but until them ill still feel unworthy
and hardly will you know,
because ill hide the pain with a nice strip show,
hate to tell you but i know exactly why im feelling this way,
tell me why... im missing you